Ben Cheney @BackToForks

< work now before I end up losing my job.]]

< friend. I sigh and run my fingers through my hair. I hear my name being called and my manager standing behind me. I think he was calling my name for a while and I was so lost in thought I didn't hear him. I stand up and walk over to him. I need to focus on >

< emotionally. She is someone that can hold her own and take care of herself. I like that about Angela. I know that we will make it through this, whatever it is and eventually @Humorlessquest will tell me everything that happened when she was looking for her >

< shower. I feel that since the accident we've become closer. She is still guarded, I can feel it but she is letting that guard down slowly. I'm realizing that @Humorlessquest is a lot stronger than I remember her being. Not so much physically but >

< she wanted me to hold her. Those are nights she seemed to have nightmares. Other nights she just wanted to be left alone. Either way i want to be there for her. Most of the time I helped her change in her clothes and helped her get in and out of the >

< know I want to be a better person than I was in California. Since the accident things have been moving a little quicker. I've stayed a few night with Angela. Not that anything happened or that I was thinking it would but we've shared a bed. Some nights >

< high school. She was quiet and shy and kept to herself. She was smart too, still is. On the other hand I know I'm not the same Ben either. I want her to get to know the real me, whoever that might be. I think I'm still trying to figure that out myself. I >

< follow up appointments but she just brushed it off. Angela keeps saying she is fine but I still worry. It's amazing how quickly things change. Before all this we were taking it slow. I wanted to get to know the adult Angela. I know the girl I dated back in >

< why I feel the need to know but I do. I guess after everything I've been through I have some trust issues. Angela is making great progress though. @Humorlessquest is now getting up and walking around. Every day she is getting better. I asked if she had >

< there but that didn't happen. It just seems kind of odd that her friend ends up missing and Angela ends up injured in a “car accident.” so for now I stopped asking her about it. When she is fully recovered I will bring up the subject again. I'm not sure >

< I'm just questioning why her friend was missing in the first place. Angela just seemed to skip over all those details. Since her friends death she hasn't even talked about It. I thought she would ask me to attend the funeral with her or at least drive her >

< It's obvious that she doesn't want to talk about it with me. It can be because she lost a friend. I know how that feels, to lose someone like that and to think that maybe part of it was your fault. She was hoping to save her friend but that didn't happen. >

[[I spent most of my time working and helping Angela recover. She needs my help even if she doesn't want to admit it. I still have questions that doesn't make sense. Everytime I ask @Humorlessquest she avoids the subject. Usually I will just let it go. >

< wrong. I just don't know what it is.]]

< I set it back down. She will call, what could be so important that she would leave in a rush the disappear for days. I shake my head at myself. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't be worried, but deep down inside I have a feeling that something is >

< then I thought maybe that isn't a good idea. I don't want to worry her mom if there isn't anything to worry about. I'll give it one more day and if I don't hear from @Humorlessquest then I'll call her mom. I pick up my phone and look at it. Still nothing. >

< go again. We talk every day. Usually after I get home from work and settle down for the night. Several calls went unanswered then her phone started going straight to voicemail. I thought about calling her mom and asking if she has heard from Angela but >

< would just leave like that but I didn't think nothing of it at the time. Now that it has been a few days and I haven't heard from @Humorlessquest I'm starting to get worried. It's not like her not to call me. Not since we agreed to give our relationship a >

< go. She looked scared about whatever the call was about. I asked her about it but she said it wasn't important and left. She said she was sorry and will make It up to me but never gave a reason why she had to leave so quickly. It felt weird that Angela >

< I would be again. It is funny how life turns out like that sometimes. @Humorlessquest helped me move in. I didn't have much so it didn't take a long time. We planned for her to stay the night with me, but she received a call suddenly and said she had to >