Autism + ADHD in one brain = internalised chaos (the Autism wants routine and the ADHD wants spontaneity). Add to this external chaos (Hostile environments including people and policies) and you get extreme and debilitating demand avoidance. Then add to this complex post traumatic stress disorder caused by many years of unmet needs, hostile environments and wrong labels = AuDHD with trauma. AuDHD folks are not traumatised by their neurodivergent differences when they understand themselves, they are traumatised by those who don’t and won’t understand them.
Just like Autism + Environment = Outcome (Beardon, 2017).
@auticulate Massive (awful) epiphany when I realized I simultaneously need routine and freedom and that's why I'm never at ease
@auticulate AuDHD with trauma - that's me. Sometimes I just don't want to do it anymore. The daily internal battle to get through the external grind is more & more difficult.