. @myinternalhell

life is tough, but so are you. Joined January 2013

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. @myinternalhell

5 years ago

Some days just breathing feels impossible, some days I wonder how I’ve made it this far

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5 years ago

I used to be able to drink and the memories would come flooding back, now I’m half a bottle of wine deep and I cant hear his voice or picture his smile anymore...

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. @myinternalhell

5 years ago

I can’t make anyone understand

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Suddenly I’m waking up exhausted again and I just don’t know how I’m going to keep it together this week. How can I work 60 hours when I barely have enough in me to socialize with my family. How can I care for others when I don’t even know how to heal myself

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. @myinternalhell

5 years ago

I’m trying my hardest not to act how I feel

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. @myinternalhell

5 years ago

It’s so frustrating and scary to accept I will never truly recover. This pain will never really go away... I will spend forever just managing this ache in my chest and thoughts in my head

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. @myinternalhell

5 years ago

Tonight I was down and just could not stop crying. My boyfriend looked at me and said we’re gonna go for a drive, blast Shania Twain and get doughnuts... my ex would have told me I just wasn’t trying hard enough and ignored me all night. There’s better out there. Don’t settle.

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. @myinternalhell

5 years ago

It seems surreal that two months ago I was in emerge after attempting suicide and tomorrow at that same hospital I am starting a full time position where I can help others. I’m so blessed 💛

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. @myinternalhell

6 years ago

I tried to kill myself this week and when the doctor asked why while he stitched my wrist all I could tell him was I’m tired... life is exhausting

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6 years ago

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. @myinternalhell

6 years ago

My birthday is next week and the amount of times I’ve thought about ending it all before then... I just don’t see the point

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. @myinternalhell

6 years ago

I just need someone to see that I’m not okay, why can nobody tell that I’m drowning

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. @myinternalhell

6 years ago

after endless nights of crying. I finally realized that I’m on my own and nothing will ever change that.

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. @myinternalhell

6 years ago

It’s getting bad again. But I can’t tell anyone. I can’t disappoint anyone, yet again. But all I want to do is relapse and go back to being the depressed disappointment I’ve always been.

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. @myinternalhell

6 years ago

Every time I think I’m okay I look at that bottle of pills beside my bed and that little voice in my head reminds me how painless it would be to not exist at all