Before I realised I was gay I would just choose random guys to have crushes on. That's actually how I thought everyone was doing it. That's how I thought crushes worked in general.
@theemilygwen PLEASE someone i used to be friends with was 100% straight but she would also do this 😭😭
@theemilygwen same but i’d copy my friends and choose theirs bc i thought we were all picking and didn’t understand that they actually had feelings for the boys which became problematic
@theemilygwen I would have a constant inner monologue of the most heteronormative pep talker "he's nice and I have to have like experiences in dating in college so like this guy! Come on amp up your heartbeat with constant low lying anxiety, remember to smile BOOM! YOU TOTALLY HAVE A CRUSH"
@theemilygwen @pizzachurro And also, I just didn’t get the big fuss over having crushes. Weren’t there more important things to do?? Oh, and why did I always want to know more about the female characters in movies and shows?!
@theemilygwen Literally same. I chose a kid in my class to have a crush on bc all the other little girls were like boy crazy and I wanted to fit in. I picked a boy simply based on him having drawn me a cool picture of a cat 😂 literally no physical attraction involved in my decision
@theemilygwen Before I realised I'm demisexual I did the same thing. I don't know what even is takeaway here except that it would be useful to talk about these things more to avoid drama, confusion, embarrassment and detachment.
@theemilygwen I'm glad I'm not alone in this. Never had a realistic guy crush until high school.
@theemilygwen Umm is that what people do like in general? Im 28 and a cis straight woman but i never legit had a crush on anyone, yet alone conciously
@theemilygwen My first 'crush' was just a boy who correctly followed my instructions on the playground to build a sand pulley on the jungle gym. Five year old me was thinking 'He listens? I guess he'll do.' 🤣
@theemilygwen I’d have multiple so if one was out for the day I’d just switch them like it was a football game