How I Feel. @wiseofquote

@arden_katherine just finished you series, and absolutely loved it! Thank you for this story!

I dare a thought to reach out to an old like, but retract it due to the time and the mind set. Why do I tempt the uncomfort when my heart wants to settle, why do I feel the need to move, when isolation is strong?

How to feel alone 101 Don’t reach out to friends, wait till they find you. Go out in high hopes, but choose isolation instead of extroversion. Pretend to be invisible, and lower the volume of the negative thoughts. Have a false set of confidence, pretend.

In feeble solitude, my efforts are slim. Ibplace myself in society, but do not react in normal fashion. I am to odd for that. I sit alone, in my thoughts and mind. Drawing a conclusion that is unclear, and ever changing.

My goals don’t exist They are scattered across time I hope they return

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Morning thoughts

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You are like gas in water Beautiful to look at But toxic to grow with

At a restaurant, eating alone Listen To conversations words, kitchen noises But I hear no value in there words “Oh might be our new tia place dear” “That’s a new building there, right?” Where are the deep conversations The emotions of life The genuine laughter? #amwriting

You cannot ask for love to come into your life For it will flee You cannot force love into your life For it will crumble You must let it happen as it happens And accept it when it arrives, But if it’s needing to leave, Let it For it will come back In another way #poem #words

Figuring out which path to take, That is an adventure of its own Left, right, strait, or diagonal Why do I create so many directions? Options, I have plenty Decision I’ve made few Where am I going? What am I wanting to do? . . . These are the questions I dare not ask. Afraid

@thelaceylondon His hears speaks of troubled pasts

My emotions have been strong lately, maybe it's because all of the sudden changes. Or the extremes in which I'm feeling them. Or how overwhelming it is to feel so deeply and not have someone close who can understand. I stand back to be forgotten, but dream to be seen.

"do you have a girlfriend in your life?" "Are you kidding me? Do you know how hard it is for someone to tolerate all of, (hands gestures over self) this?! It's a lot" Translates to: it's hard to make a connection last, when you don't know where you stand.

I attempt to reach out, in my own way. It's more like a tenitive tap on the shoulder, or a wave or a smile? You can't read my mind though. Which is good and bad. Good because of the chaos, bad because of the; what if.

Oh to feel alone. No, to be lonely. To feel apart from; to say words. They lack there of response, isn't to be taken personal. But when connections fail. What do we have left?

I mailed a letter. It was hand written, by me. My first in over 5 years. It held hope, possibility, and a bit of love. That was 12 days ago. I haven't heard back, no text or letter. Maybe it got lost, or you chose not to respond. I dont know. I hold a simple thread that I to you.

We are young, yet we feel heavy responsibility. We've been handed a deck of cards that's already been sorted through, with all the high cards taken out. Are chances to win are slim. We need to create a game that makes our hand the winner. Change the rules.

Death is something that pops up in my head every now and then. What if a meteor is doing toward Earth and it has 34.6 hours until it hits. Where do you go? Who do you want to see? Do you accept it or fine a solution?

I feel the need to improve myself. To be better for myself, I think... I've always had this motive to learn new skills to be unique, so I can be a rare person. Rare things tend to have more value, I just hope I gain enough skills before I die.