Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

Possibly falling to pieces, I can’t be sure. I thought I was doing so well, but if I take the smallest hit I crumble. You broke my self esteem and only red wine numbs that feeling. #breakup

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You’re not the first thing on my mind when I wake up. Nor when I go to sleep. But when I spend time with our friends, and your name is mentioned, it’s like a sharp cut. I blanch at your name. In the sound of that four letter word I miss you the most.

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

I just want to run to them, to take them in my arms and hold them and feed them slowly and be gentle and forceful and do anything they need until they can breath on their own again. I want to treat them like I needed, when I was most broken. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

Is it worth it? Is any of it worth it? I think not. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

Speaking with a friend on the phone who just had the final ‘its over’ chat similar to ours, with their partner. They’re hurt and confused and so afraid of what happens next, it made me sob loudly and unashamedly in empathy. Why is this all so painful? #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

They say it takes just 3 weeks for the human brain to get used to any circumstance. Captivity, isolation, loss. I did it, I survived 3 weeks. Now I can only hope that you don’t leave a scar. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

It’s been 3 weeks and you come to mind so rarely now, maybe two or three times a day. When you do I am glad that I am sedated. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

Swallowing my anxiety medication with a coffee doesn’t seem like the best idea. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

I’m glad that my antidepressants let me know which day of the week it is. It’d be hard to know otherwise. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

I lay in bed with a friend and talked about all the things about you that piss me off. It felt good. I’m realising this relationship was never perfect. That’s a huge step forward. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

I haven’t thought about you for a whole day. I’m not even thinking about you now. I don’t like you. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

I went out with the mindset of finding someone to get you off my skin. It was weird, a slight change in my natural persona, an openness, I know people were interested. I enjoyed that. But not enough to go home with anyone. I’m not ready to throw you off just yet. #breakup.

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

I’m so lonely tonight. I just want to feel someones skin on mine. I don’t even think it’s you I’m missing anymore. I just miss the temperature of another person’s skin. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

8 years ago

I need a substitute for you. I am hungover and horny and I want someone to get in my bed and eat curry with me and watch basic films. Someone who is gentle and smells good. I miss the idea of you. #breakup

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Elenore Jacobs @EquisitePain

9 years ago

Today I feel so angry with you it’s taking up every thought in my head. I want to write you an angry letter full of things I know will hurt you. But what’s the point. #breakup